Can’t stop the painI don’t know what else to say. No matter how much I learn and grow I just hurt. All the time. Daydreams are where I express my love and see it reflected back to me. And my heart hurts, because it’s not enough I long for a love that I am not...See More »
I love doctor whoNcuti Gatwa is amazing as the Doctor. I had a lot of fun with Jodi Whittaker too. The flux episodes were brilliant. I used to get myself a bottle of wine and a Chinese and watch each week. Loved John bishop in those episodes, I’d love to see him...See More »
I believe in the spiritualBut I resent that I feel so cut off from it. I wish I could experience more of it like so many others seem to.
That nagging thingI feel like I am about to have an epiphany or sorts. I think the reason I don't "see myself", is because the 'self' that I believe I am (the inner me) is either purely an aesthetic thing, or an aesthetic concept with a few likes and loves. There...See More »
I wish for some thingsI don't wish my life was over but I wish it was something else. I wish I was someone else. I wish I could start again with what I know now, as someone else. I wish for a life that can give me confidence and agency, teach me how to have fun and...See More »
I have hopeI am completely, utterly, totally…wholly, in love with you. I want to live a life with you, marry you, grow old with you. I want to see everything that you are and tell you how wonderful it is. I want to celebrate and enjoy our passions together....See More »
A little self talkYou weren't too loud, you were happy and exicited and relaxed...you like to wear your emotions and share them. That's you. You didn't say anything weird, it's not your fault they laughed, you were being vulnerable and that makes some people feel...See More »
Fear of losing myselfI have this fear that I will be eternally damaged. Or that I will be unrecognisable as an individual, either to myself or others. Idk - there is something about my life that makes me feel like it is eating away at everything that makes me...See More »
Seems obvious somehow but I havent understood till nowIt occurs to me now that emotional connections to other people could depend (perhaps 'should' depend) on their feelings towards you, and not the other way around. Thinking about others before ourselves when making relationships is harder than it...See More »
So why is it so hard?God wants us to love each other and think of others and be slow to anger…and it should be easy! It sounds easy. Why. Is. It. So. Hard! And don’t say “that’s what she said.”
When you know GodWhen you know God, everything else just sort of falls away… That just came to me and I felt like I had to write it down.
Pointless being meIt’s pointless being here on earth, living like this…when God exists. I heard him speak to me in the small hours of the morning, a quiet but strong presence and a voice in my mind. “I know only love” is what God said to me. I asked him why he...See More »
I feel like I am owedand I can't shake the feeling. I feel like the universe owes me big time. and i just feel ignored and I feel like things shouldn't be this way. that everything we are living right now is a waste of energy that will come to nothing. I don't think...See More »
I want to be patient and kindI need to be kinder to myself. I never realised before that I ignore myself, and I do not care about myself. I don't love and acknowledge myself in the way I do others! I take it for granted that I exist...and that is that.
I want peaceI am desperate for peace. Sometimes I think I want solitude, because company and general every day life is so noisy. But then when you do get solitude, all the noise in side of you seems so much louder and the anxiety and discomfort of being gets...See More »
I could be a better person if I loved myself moreIn my mind I keep thinking I’m a horrible and worthless person, but I think maybe that thought process is the reason I let myself down in the first place. I could be calmer and kinder and more patient for example, if I believed for a second that I w...See More »
Death and denialIt always seems unexpected somehow. Even when you really DO know it's coming. I knew when I took my dog to the vets, the chances of getting to bring him back were almost zero. He was very old and very ill. That's why I took him to the vets after...See More »
I rememberI remember what it feels like , that pure joy and glory Now it's here in me as though it has never left. I think this is the closest thing to proof of God that I have ever known Everyone feels it. You realise this as soon as you know what it is...See More »
A Rose by any other shakespereSomehow I believed, for a moment. I believed that if I asked a question then I would get an answer...to whatever I asked. I thought that 'listening to God' feels like believing. - I couldnt tell you how long I have been struggling with the idea of...See More »
